Today i had a very scary dream. I owed somebody a debt, and he was going to kill me. I kind of get cornered on a huge staircase, and he was gonna push me from the top. Moments before throwing me, I ask him to give me some time (1 min or so), just so that i am prepared (I know its silly, but that's how the dream went).
So, here I was, hanging from the top of a huge staircase, and i began to reflect..."Is that all there is to my life?, I wanted to do so much...None of what i am doing right now seemed significant - acads, job, publications - none of them mattered. I reflected on how i spend most of my time keeping myself busy, never realizing that this moment would come"...it all seemed pointless. Luckily, I managed to wake up and shake off my fear...Strangely though, in the last moments of the fall, i lost all fear. I dont recall why.
So, I've decided. From Aug, I am gonna devote 2 hrs to myself. Do whatever i wanted...even if it means to just sit, or stare blankly at the stars..
On a totally unrelated note, I think this will make a fine novel. A novel that describes the thoughts of this fictional character who is going to die within a minute.
So, here I was, hanging from the top of a huge staircase, and i began to reflect..."Is that all there is to my life?, I wanted to do so much...None of what i am doing right now seemed significant - acads, job, publications - none of them mattered. I reflected on how i spend most of my time keeping myself busy, never realizing that this moment would come"...it all seemed pointless. Luckily, I managed to wake up and shake off my fear...Strangely though, in the last moments of the fall, i lost all fear. I dont recall why.
So, I've decided. From Aug, I am gonna devote 2 hrs to myself. Do whatever i wanted...even if it means to just sit, or stare blankly at the stars..
On a totally unrelated note, I think this will make a fine novel. A novel that describes the thoughts of this fictional character who is going to die within a minute.
